So scared.

I can't stop crying. This is one of the scariest things...that I have had to face. Sucky thing is I can't be by his side. My boyfriend is in the hospital and I can't know all the reasons why...but that he's hurt pretty bad. I'm so scared...I'm so afraid..that one day..he will be taken away from me..that the bad news is gonna be that he's dead. That he's not here on this earth anymore. I don't know what to do. I want to be with him so much. Except with what I just found out..that I would not be able to touch him..that I probably could not go near him..because I'm not family or medical staff....That is not fair. I hate this..I hate all of this. The things that put him in danger..and the things that might take him away from me. I don't like this at all. I just want to lay down somewhere...and cry...